** suicide prevention **

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the other night was really bad for me. i've got a lot of PTSD issues going on (US Army MP, deployed to iraq in 2008), on top of my long term gf and i splitting up, it was bad. i felt like there was no escape, that i was just a burden on everyone. i was sitting there on the edge of my bed, looking at my pistol. i had been crying for like 10 minutes. i kept looking at my pistol, and started to make a plan in my head of how i would do it. needless to say i was at the bottom of the barrel. but i recognized that shit wasn't going so well, and i called up a friend, this was at like 7 in the morning. i was crying, and told him i was having a really hard time, and i didn't need to be by myself for a while. he said no worries, and i basically went over to his house for a while till i felt better. the next couple of days were shitty as well, and i just made sure to always be with someone, so i wasn't alone. i told them the situation and everyone was cool. a couple of days later i started to feel not as shitty, and a few more and i actually felt "ok". my friends were supportive, and even volunteered to keep my guns for a while till i felt better.

the main thing i want everyone to get from this story is that suicide is a permanent solution, to a temporary problem. it may not seem that way in the moment, but i promise you it will. reach out to someone, anyone. you don't have to go into detail or any of that shit. if they ask, just tell them you don't want to talk about it right now, your just in a bad way, and don't need to be alone at the moment. call your friends, someone you deployed with, family, they'll understand. we may all hail from different countries here, but if your a veteran in any capacity, your my brother, and i will always be here for any of you. i was in iraq with aussies, germans, brits, romaniians, isrealis. all from different countries, fighting the same fight. i personally don't agree with the reason we were at war, but seeing the look on a child's face saying thank you, meant everything to me. you may not realize it, but there is a family somewhere that is alive because of you. your not worthless. please don't take the easy way out. all your doing is transferring your pain, to all the people that are close to you. it's one of the most selfish acts you can possibly do.

i put this here so everyone can see my story, and to take a little bit of the awkwardness off when talking about it. if your up to it, everyone that can, or is willing, put their story on here, so people can see other people were in the same boat, but made the right choice. if people are afraid to talk about it, they're a lot less likely to bring it up to someone because they feel weak, or ashamed to ask for help. it's cool man, this is what friends are for, to support each other when we need it.

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Posted Jul 24, 18 · OP
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Glad you played it smart and sought out some help, many don’t. Peace and love to you Antioch.

http://www.militarymindsinc.com/

Those guys are all vets helping vets, and can help direct you to other resources, both in Canada and the US.

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Posted Jul 24, 18 · Last edited Jul 24, 18 by [ATF] Gunr
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glad you decided not to. My wife is a VA nurse and sees patients all day long that are going thru this trauma and she says it weighs her down even after listening and then trying to help them. Some days she just comes home and sleeps till the next day - weary from the mental stress.

I hope you continue to prevail against the depression. If you ever just need someone to talk to pm me and I can give you my cell - we may not know each other personally but if a phone call with a friendly voice on the other end will help, then I rather that happen vs the alternative.

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Posted Aug 1, 18
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You are learning things to cope and will find more ways as time goes by. Now that you are unlocking some of the knowledge coming from experience be ready to pass it on. You are needed. You are valuable. You might be the person to save someone else someday?
You are not alone, I've dealt with is for over 45 years since the Que Son Valley 1969 and you can too. You sound further ahead than I was at your age. I have had my ups and downs, everyone does, but I'm still here and mostly pretty happy, had a good life. When I think of all the good things I would have missed if I checked out it makes me sad. You, like most of us Combat Vets are on bonus time. Make the most of it. You owe it to those who didn't come home to live life the best you can. Do as much good for as long as you can. Now carry on......



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Posted Aug 24, 18 · Last edited Aug 24, 18 by [ATF] King
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I have not been here in quite some time, some of you know why, some of you are about to find out why.

Three years ago we lost our daughter to suicide. I worked for about 2 years running a nonprofit organization to help people struggling with mental illness related to suicide. I did really well with that for the two-years, and then realized that in my situation it was just a bad idea to get involved in so quickly.

I did want to post here because this is an important topic that all-to-often gets joked about online, or used as some form of belittling or insult.

Directly though, I want to comment on the statement that "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem". This statement in the field of suicide prevention has largely been dropped as something that should be used in regard to preventing suicide. The thought process behind dropping that phrase is that you never want someone to look at suicide as a "solution" no matter what the circumstances are.

More related to the original post here, though... I know all-to-well how PTSD affects a person with everything we have been through. If you do need help finding resources let me know. I will add, too, that the VA is a lot better about dealing with this than they used to be. If you feel you are absolutely out of options, definitely contact the VA if you qualify for their help.
Posted Oct 30, 18
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